I have been given the greatest tender mercy this past month, and I feel like I want to share it. Have you ever had those teeny glimpses of bliss? Those perfect moments set in insanity? One thing the Lord has blessed me with the past month is perspective. For whatever reason, He has urged me toward the bigger picture and in so doing shown me that this season in my life is one that I will wish for over and over. Getting Kent's dream career going, has been long and arduous, to say the least. But in the end, I will not remember the ache, fear, money, faith, or lack thereof. The Lord has whispered to my heart and warmly nudged me when I see Bella and Harry playing, that THIS is what I will remember AND long for. I will look back on this period of my life as one of the greatest, most fulfilling, least complicated and happiest of my life, and I will want to live it again and again.
Please understand, this is not the way I usually look at things. This perspective is a tender mercy, and it is what I need so desperately. How does He always know? I am so grateful to be a mother, and to have the opportunity to raise my children in the gospel, in a free land. I am grateful for eternity, I am grateful for the spirit, without which, I would be a hopeless mess, I am sure. The further I get into life, the more I realize, I can't do it without the gift of the Holy Ghost, especially being a mom. Someone once told me, "You have two knees and a direct link to Heavenly Father, what more do you need to be that childs mother?" I am grateful for my children. This lesson in perspective has been enormously impactful, permanent, and thorough. I am so grateful for my Savior, the greatest teacher, who forgives me though I deserve it the least and directs me because I need it the most.
Anyway, motherhood.......the days are long, the years are short.
One more quick thought, I had this week. I was taking Bella's breakfast order " I would like Oatmeal, eggs, juice, toast and cereal." And I looked at her with my usual reply, start with oatmeal and then you can have more." I paused and realized, I heard my Heavenly Father speaking the same words about spiritual feasts "Use what I have given you and then I will give you more." So during breakfast, I did use what He gave us, we read the scriptures. And the power that came through from a verse I had read a thousand times before knocked me silent and answered a prayer I have been praying for sometime, in regards to Kent's career. The scripture is Mormon 9:15 ".....and God has not ceased to be a God of miracles." I have so much to learn....
Anyway, that's my testimony. Thanks for letting me share it. It is much better then getting up and shaking like a leaf at the podium.
7 comments:
Kristin, Exactly, and what a great mother you are. That is what I felt so much while I was there and why it was so sweet and restful for me. It was the simplistic life that you live. Not meaning that it is boring, or not hard, but what you do every day is the things that matter most. From the sweet hugs you give those kids as they wake, the wholesome breakfast together at the breakfast table as you read the scriptures with the kids, the sweet way you have taught them to love to read, sing, dance and to play together so nice. You can't afford to go here , go there, and get lost in the world. Your life is each other, spending time in nature and books and doing good for others. You are amazing and I couldn't be more thrilled to be your mother and Bella and Harry's grandmother. I love you all.
You are so amazing! I love reading your posts and especially this one - so heartfelt and impressive. You da best!
That was so neat to read. You are a great writer. I LOVED the "days are long..years are short" - did you come up with that yourself?
We ALL as parents, need that perspective, and I'm thankful that you shared yours with us.
That's something I need to hear every day because by the time I wake up the next day I have forgotten. Thank you for sharing your testimony and for being such a good example of love and faith.
There is definitely a reason we are told to "share" our testimonies...because it strengthens others. THANK YOU! You have just strengthened mine. You are a terrific mother and your kids are lucky and blessed to have you as their mother. Everything you said is right on and something that every mother needs to be reminded of once in awhile. You have always been a wonderful example to me and I am grateful to have you as my friend.....have I mentioned that I MISS YOU!!
Thanks for sharing it-- you are amazing. And you are so right-- these are the times we are going to wish we could go back to. I needed the reminder. Thank you.
Kristin,
Did you know Anna Evensen is trying to get a hold of you and wants to read your blog. (Is your blog private? I can't remember since it logs me in automatically). Anyway...I loved this post. Is Kent working at Nike now? So much to catch up on. So much more than texting will allow. I would love to talk sometime.
Your children are beautiful. I can't wait to meet my little Peter.
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