I was looking all over the web for homes. Everywhere. I had looked over the past months at about a thousand. But I saw this home and a feeling consumed me "This is where you are supposed to be." No voices, just nudges. But the nudge was strong enough to carry me through the good bye hugs, the Boise breakdown and the Lease signing blues. All the while, I was reassured. This is where we are supposed to be. Finally, happily, let it begin.
Why haven't I written? Well, let's be honest. It hurt too much. As much as moving forward is hard, standing still has been more difficult. Caught in limbo, I didn't know what I was doing in the next five minutes let alone the next five days. And that level of uncertainity wore on me. Wore on my spirit until I was sufficiently down. The only rays of light came from my little babies beautiful faces, they were all I wanted to see every day and I didn't care if I accomplished or did anything else. Maybe its that I was suffiently humble to recieve the guidance the my Heavenly Father wanted to give me.
The Temple we go to now.
Oh how I love you, let me count the ways!!
I miss home more then I can say. I miss worshiping fruit with Suz. I miss talking to Papa Stan. I miss Bella digging in the dirt with Grandma. I miss my mountains. I miss my Hike-a-Deb - man do I miss my Hike-a-Deb. Harry misses and asks for his Gampa Gampa everyday. I miss my Lindsay's adventures in everything, I miss Nicole's laugh, farmers market with Molly, I miss Bella's little friends, I miss my friends who know me in and out, I miss the library, I miss the way the sky in Utah changes at sunset from Orange to purple, the list is forever long. I ached sometimes.
But at the end of the day, I am here. I am now. And all I can do is hope that you guys, my ward family and my family will find your way to our home to visit soon. Heaven only knows you are in our hearts forever.Bella took this picture of Kent. 
We have all been sleeping alot. We are plum tuckered. 
Now that's out of my system. I can write and I will. Soon.
8 comments:
OOOHHh man I miss all your amazing cooking! lets be honest was I not there everyday sitting next to Bella and Harry waiting for my yummy lunch, ha ha! It kills me to see pictures of them, I miss you guys all so much. I would love to come visit you guys sometime, I'll start figuring out when is a good time for me to leave. We need to stay in touch as much as we can! You look so beautiful as usual, I love that picture of you and Harry, so cute! well I love you and am so happy that you are happy and starting this fun new adventure and what a beautiful place to be living. give your kids a massive hug and kiss for me!
Love Ya,
Suzette
I can't believe you moved! I was just thinking today that maybe we could go to the Farmer's Market together. I know you will find your way and make a wonderful life there. Just one day at a time. You will have a new ward family and great adventures. I love you.
Good luck! I hope you make some good friends soon and adjust quickly. I know it can be hard, but it does get better.
Wow, good for you guys. I would love to hear the whole story of how this came about. You are all so charming and adorable, you will make friends and adjust easily. Good luck and we love you.
Boise Breakdown? I'm sorry. I must say, you are handling the uncertainty with an amazing amount of grace. I am glad you are there and happy. Good luck! We love you and miss you.
Congratulations on your move!! I'm bummed I didn't follow through with swimming...I would have loved to have gotten together. You've been on my mind so much lately! Just yesterday I was telling Molly we should get together with you. So, now I'll have to wait until I visit Boise...which is where my very dearest friend lives! So, yes, I do visit at least yearly...In fact I need to start planning my visit very soon. I'll let you know when I come. I'd love to see you! I'm happy for you. And Boise is a beautiful, wonderful city. Keep in touch!
Kristin- Just a thought...do you remember Charity Hyer from PC? She only lived in the ward last summer before moving to Idaho. She had a new baby. She's very cool. Anyway, they recently moved to Boise also. If you want, I can put you in touch. She's awesome.
Holy Canoli you DID IT!! For a while there we were worried - but when you're in the middle of a miracle it's hard to see the end. Now looking back I'm sure you can see the Lord's hand in the details. We love you and miss you but we are SOOOOOO Happy for you. Every time we talk on the phone you guys sound SO GOOD!! Like SIGNIFICANTLY different and BETTER than before. This is right - you guys are SO GOOD!! What an ADVENTURE!! Keep us posted and we'll keep on looking for cheap flights! Love you guys!
p.s. Oh and that BEACH - Are ya KIDDING ME?!
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